My Sun Shine Angel

                       

I have had all kind of Angels in my life.  They come to me in all different ways. This Angel  I call my Sun shine Angel. And this is why, I was told I had AMD. I am losing my site. This is only suppose to hit old people. My family doctor feels as I do. I am too young to have this.  So he sent me to a specialist for a second opinion. Not only did he confirm  I had AMD, he confirmed it has gotten a lot worse. In July my site was 20/40 and 20 /60. Now it is 20/80 and 20/200. Needless to say this news wiped me out. I was not a happy camper, It is never easy to realize you are getting old. And your body is falling apart. And you have this uninvited visitor in you that you can't control. While the doctors tell you there is know cure. My main worry is my husband. He has ALS. Another monster that there is no cure for. Who will take care of him? Will I get to see my daughter and Grandchildren 1 more time. So many thing rush through my mind.  Deeper and deeper I fall into my depression. I can just see myself picking out a pink top and green shorts. What if I have to give George his medication, how will I cook. How will  I take care of the house, go get groceries. Paint again. All the little things we take for granted is being taken away from me. Reading watching T.V. seeing my face in a mirror. What have I done so bad to deserve this. Haven’t I had enough monsters in my life. When All I want to do is yell stop the world I want to get off. If it would do any good I would scream. Just as I feel as if I have hit bottom I hear the sweetest voice say Hi Shirley, How’s it going girl. Sometimes that is all it take for me to know I am not alone. Some times it takes Chocolates. This lady has such a big heart. And has away of letting you know she is with you every step of the way. Every time I hear the Alabama song Angels Among us. I think of her. Not only has she offered her friendship she has offered her heart. This lady has some broad shoulders. Not only does she take on her family and there troubles she takes on ALS, Cancer, and AMD just to name a few.  She has a way of making me laugh. Of making me want to come alive and to live. I know as long as I can hear Hi Shirley how goes it girl. I am going to be just fine.  So thank you Millie not only for being there but for being a true friend. Millie P. Lorenz,

My Sunshine Angel.

Written by Shirley Goodwin

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